I’m Coming Out
I recently found a post from May 2015—almost exactly eleven years ago—a time when The Intuitive Editor didn't exist yet, and I was hesitant to speak my truth.
At the time, I was terrified to hit "publish." I was a professional editor, writer, and aspiring performer who had spent years hiding a core part of myself—a part I hardly knew existed until I moved to New York. I was worried people would think I was "too out there", particularly friends and family back home in Utah, or that my professional credibility would vanish if I admitted the scary truth.
I was finally coming out of my shell as a psychic.
Looking back at these words from eleven years ago, I can see the exact moment the seeds for The Intuitive Editor were planted (and I have the Evernote to prove it).
Back then, I was just figuring out what it meant to “channel” while learning to communicate with my "Core Four" spirit guides (who are still a hoot, by the way), which has expanded to a group of about seven who hang out with me regularly.
So, I felt like sharing this blast from the past with you today—not just to show you where I started, but to remind you that the things you’re currently hiding might be the very things that eventually become your greatest service to the world. <3
I'm Coming Out
In January, I felt this big change was coming. What I didn’t expect or realize was that change would come from within myself. It’s been a lot of work to even get to this point, and I didn’t know how to clearly express what was going on.
However, I can’t help but feel like the silence has to stop.
There’s a bit of a proverbial closet that I was unknowingly hiding myself in for years and years. And I think I need to come forward and admit it. Embrace it. Allow it to truly manifest in my life.
When I first felt that pull to get a tarot deck, I couldn’t quite figure out why I fell so easily into its grasp. The fact that it came so easily was exciting! I was having a blast learning the ins and outs of the cards, and on top of it, I was picking up on things that weren’t even spelled out in the cards. A couple of the free readings I offered actually revealed that I might be a bit more than just a tarot card reader…
I may just have to come out and say it… I am a psychic.
Just writing that makes me feel so many different things. A sense of knowing. Excitement. Purpose. A little fear. But I know this is something I need to own up to. I have this insane feeling that this is a huge part of who I am, why I’m on earth at this time, and how I’m meant to serve others.
I pick up on things like you wouldn’t believe. The fact that “another woman” is somehow involved in a happy relationship. The thought that a baby feels lost. That someone has been considering an animal shelter as a possible side venture without previous mention.
My dreams often reveal situations that happen later, and my deja vu occurrences are about every week or so.
I can communicate with my Core Four personal guides (that’s what they call themselves; they are a hoot) and even Angels.
I’m able to channel beings that aren’t me, though that’s still something new to me.
Based on what I’ve read and understood about being psychic so far, it can come in many forms. For me, it appears clairvoyance (clear seeing) and clairsentience (clear feeling) are my strongest, but I have inclinations towards almost every single “clair” there is. Claircognizance (clear knowing) seems to be the one I’m resisting the most, so I’m trying to adjust my thinking about that. Since, you know, our thoughts and words create our reality.
A couple of weeks ago, someone asked me if I was a hippy after I blurted out that they had a lovely yellow energy. I could only laugh and say no.
Being psychic doesn’t mean you have to wear giant hoop earrings, own a crystal ball, hang beads in every doorway, or charge $10 to look into the future. That’s not what being psychic is about. Not even close.
It’s about being tapped into something greater than something here on earth. Tapped into energy, into the universe, into the people around you. It’s about really seeing and embracing all the messages the world, the Universe, and even the greater power have to share.
And, another thing… It’s not elusive. Anyone can embrace these abilities if they want to. Totally possible.
So, this is me… stepping into another core part of myself as a highly intuitive being. This will be a perfectly thrilling journey, I can feel it.
Reading this today, I can’t help but giggle at my younger self resisting my claircognizance.
Eleven years later, that "clear knowing" is exactly what allows me to see into the soul of a manuscript right off the bat. At times, though, I still duke it out with this particular clair, often confusing it for my clairsentience, telepathy, or even a just stray thought. Because… how can I just know things like this?
Because I can and do. And it's pretty magical.
What I called "stepping into a core part of myself" back then has now become my daily reality. The proverbial closet is long gone, replaced by my very own psychic editorial bookshop—where ink and soul meet on the page, and magic hides in the margins (ooh, that's a good one… love when an inspired phrase just drops in like that—that’s that claircognizance in action!).
Then, come to find out, my conscious sun gate in Human Design is Gate 57—the gate of intuitive clarity. This means that my psychic and intuitive acuity is my greatest gift in this life. I am literally designed to express my intuitive gifts as part of my life purpose. I was always meant to embrace this part of myself, and I’m so glad I did.
No hoop earrings or crystal balls required in this psychic’s practice—except maybe my considerable horde of crystals and tarot decks. Hey, they each serve a purpose. They are but tools.
But the psychic magic… That starts with me. ✨
(And how cool that it’s been over eleven years since I’ve “come out!”)
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I’m curious:
What part of yourself are you currently hiding in a closet?
What would happen if you allowed it to truly emerge in your life today?
Drop a comment if you feel like sharing!
